诗篇 139:1-24 RCUVSS

耶和华啊，你已经鉴察我， 认识我。 我坐下，我起来，你都晓得； 你从远处知道我的意念。 我行路，我躺卧，你都细察； 你也深知我一切所行的。 耶和华啊，我舌头上的话， 你没有一句不知道的。 你前后环绕我， 按手在我身上。 这样的知识奇妙，是我不能测的； 至高，是我不能及的。 我往哪里去，躲避你的灵？ 我往哪里逃，躲避你的面？ 我若升到天上，你在那里； 我若躺在阴间，你也在那里。 我若展开清晨的翅膀， 飞到海极居住， 就是在那里，你的手必引导我， 你的右手也必扶持我。 我若说“黑暗必定压碎我， 我周围的亮光必成为黑夜”， 黑暗对你不再是黑暗， 黑夜却如白昼发亮。 黑暗和光明， 在你看来都是一样。 我的肺腑是你所造的， 我在母腹中，你已编织 我。 我要称谢你，因我受造奇妙可畏， 你的作为奇妙，这是我心深知道的。 我在暗中受造，在地的深处被塑造； 那时，我的形体并不向你隐藏。 我未成形的体质， 你的眼早已看见了； 你所定的日子，我尚未度一日， 都在你的册子写上了。 上帝啊，你的意念向我何等宝贵！ 其数何等众多！ 我若数点，比海沙更多； 我睡醒的时候，仍和你同在。 上帝啊，惟愿你杀戮恶人； 你们好流人血的，离开我去吧！ 他们说恶言顶撞你， 你的仇敌妄称你的名 。 耶和华啊，恨恶你的，我岂不恨恶他们吗？ 攻击你的，我岂不憎恶他们吗？ 我恨恶他们到极点， 以他们为我的仇敌。 上帝啊，求你鉴察我，知道我的心思， 试炼我，知道我的意念； 看在我里面有什么恶行没有， 引导我走永生的道路。

Psalm 139:1-24 CEVUS06

You have looked deep into my heart, Lord, and you know all about me.  You know when I am resting or when I am working, and from heaven you discover my thoughts.  You notice everything I do and everywhere I go.  Before I even speak a word, you know what I will say,  and with your powerful arm you protect me from every side.  I can't understand all of this! Such wonderful knowledge is far above me.  Where could I go to escape from your Spirit or from your sight?  If I were to climb up to the highest heavens, you would be there. If I were to dig down to the world of the dead you would also be there.  Suppose I had wings like the dawning day and flew across the ocean.  Even then your powerful arm would guide and protect me.  Or suppose I said, “I'll hide in the dark until night comes to cover me over.”  But you see in the dark because daylight and dark are all the same to you.  You are the one who put me together inside my mother's body,  and I praise you because of the wonderful way you created me. Everything you do is marvelous! Of this I have no doubt.  Nothing about me is hidden from you! I was secretly woven together out of human sight,  but with your own eyes you saw my body being formed. Even before I was born, you had written in your book everything about me.    Your thoughts are far beyond my understanding, much more than I could ever imagine.  I try to count your thoughts, but they outnumber the grains of sand on the beach. And when I awake, I will find you nearby.  How I wish that you would kill all cruel and heartless people and protect me from them!  They are always rebelling and speaking evil of you.  You know I hate anyone who hates you, Lord, and refuses to obey.  They are my enemies too, and I truly hate them.  Look deep into my heart, God, and find out everything I am thinking.  Don't let me follow evil ways, but lead me in the way that time has proven true.

10 Jan 2014. In my dream, I was casting a demon from a man's body.  It was a hard fight for me, his eyeballs were rolling in white.  Initially I was trying all ways to run away (with sammi n yong en each running with me on my left n right) from the man who was demon possessed, until I had no where to hide or run, but to face him, I struggled to say my prayers, demanding the demon to come out in Jesus name many many times, I was praying with my mind and praying also in tongues, i even drew with my finger Jesus cross on his forehead, etc. Until I was awaken with a loud shout of praying in tongues. I was extremely exhausted n drained off after I was awaken.

11 Jan 2014. In my dream, I saw a person mumbering & complaining,  like a person who's yet attained spirituality maturity. 
I was asked by my student why didn't I rebuke her. I told him these reasons:

1) humility
2) God's timing (is most perfect)
2a) put myself in that person's position,  no one like to be rebuked.  God's timing is perfect for the person to grow & understand.  Do not rebuke the person when he is not ready spiritually & not ready to receive teaching or not yet able to understand.

ENDURE

HOLD ON

STEADFAST

HUMBLE

OBEY

My heart trust in You, my God & my Lord. I'm set free and I will be who You make me to be, You know me by my name and my hope is in You. Like what David said in Psalm 131 NIV "My heart is not proud, Lord , my eyes are not haughty; I do not concern myself with great matters or things too wonderful for me. But I have calmed and quieted myself, I am like a weaned child with its mother; like a weaned child I am content. Israel, put your hope in the Lord  both now and forevermore."

诗篇 131:1-3 RCUVSS

耶和华啊，我的心不狂妄， 我的眼不高傲； 重大和测不透的事， 我也不敢行。 我使我心安稳平静，好像母亲怀中断奶的孩子； 我的心在我里面如同断过奶的孩子。 以色列 啊，你当仰望耶和华， 从今时直到永远！

What's wrong with me? What's happening to me?

When I'm not feeling right, I'm on right track...

Hold on there and be still,  my soul....