28 Apr 2014 fasting n prayers

I was reading Dr Cho book on prayer, while reading, i was led by the Holy Spirit to confess my unforgiveness of those who had, in the past,  caused hurt in me. I confessed to the lord that i am willing and i want to forgive those who had treated me lightly, treated me as insignificant and looked down on me and I gave up all my hurt, bitterness and sense of inadequacy and inferiority to the Lord. By doing so, the hinderance will be lifted up in the spiritual realm and enable the conviction of Holy Spirit to work in the hearts of those who have yet to commit to Him.

30 Apr 2014 morning prayer

I asked dear Holy Spirit to help me to know my Lord Jesus, though I did not see Him face to face like the disciples did, I did not go around with him for that 3.5 years as the disciples did, but I have his Spirit in me! The Holy Spirit will help me to experience the same sufferings that my Jesus had, no one knows him better than his own Spirit, I have the Spirit of Christ in me!

Scriptures reading n mediation
2 Corinthians 1:1-11

"My Child,  if you have no part in my suffering, you have no part in me. How could one said he knows me without knowing my suffering?  You who cry out to me your desire to know me, desire not to know first my suffering?  My child, if you have no part in my sufferring, you have no part in my comfort."

For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows. 2  cor 1:5

He has delivered us from such a deadly peril, and he will deliver us. On him we have set our hope that he will continue to deliver us, as you help us by your prayers.
2 cor 1:10-11

Now it is God who makes both us and you stand firm in Christ.  He anointed us, set his seal of ownership on us, and put his Spirit in our hearts as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come. 2 Cor 1:21-22

Dear Lord, if I tell you I don't care whether I'll receive any reward, all I care is whether I'm being true to you and I want to be true to You. There is no way I can fake my achievement or fake how good I was, for nothing can be hidden from You. Father, all I ask is every time I come to You, I'm presenting a true me and this is me, a nobody, not a somebody,  not someone significant,  not someone prominent,  no good quality found in me, I get easily confused and I get agitated by all kinds of teaching about how and what we must live and do to please You. But Lord,  I do want to know You, I am desperately wanting to be closer to You, I got more agitated when I realise that no matter how best I behave,  how good I was, how holy I'm trying to be, I came to a point of facing my failures after several a attempts.  I am completely discouraged and confused....

23 Apr 2014 morning prayer

The Lord said to me:"Step forwards and never ever turn back. Courage and fearless faith. "

"Do not take salvation and My grace for granted, never ever again. " This is a stern and serious warning from the Lord, He impressed on me a fear yet I have peace in heart after I confessed all my past, the sins and deeds that God hated, I foolishly had committed. "You are not created to be part of what I hated, therefore I am bringing you out of it and separating you from those", said the Lord. "Be holy as I AM your God, I AM holy. Just like an earthly father discipline his child, I discipline you. There are shames that you brought to yourself as a result of your foolishness.  There are shames that you have to learn to bear with in humility for I AM your God and I will test you to see if you are faithful. "

I first accepted Christ at age of 12.

I was with Youth-in -Christ fellowship at age 16. I experienced a visitation from the dark evil force at age 17 and was backslidden at same age after the encounter.

I experienced my first revival in 1999 at age of 27. I had a dream given by the Lord.

I experienced my second and last revival in August 2014 at age of 41 years and 5 months. I'm still walking closely with the Lord today and may the Lord gracefully keeps me and holds me close to Him, by His grace, I be consistently walking in Him and doing His will in the numbers of days He has gracefully given me on earth.  That I may fulfill His calling for me and accomplish the task He has appointed for me. May I walk in Your counsel,  Lord and in humility and in full obedience to You. Amen!

18 Apr 2014 morning
The Lord gave me this scriptures in my mind.

Deuteronomy 6:5-25 NIV

Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength. These commandments that I give you today are to be on your hearts. Impress them on your children. Talk about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up. Tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads. Write them on the doorframes of your houses and on your gates.   When the Lord your God brings you into the land he swore to your fathers, to Abraham, Isaac and Jacob, to give you—a land with large, flourishing cities you did not build, houses filled with all kinds of good things you did not provide, wells you did not dig, and vineyards and olive groves you did not plant—then when you eat and are satisfied, be careful that you do not forget the Lord , who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery.   Fear the Lord your God, serve him only and take your oaths in his name. Do not follow other gods, the gods of the peoples around you; for the Lord your God, who is among you, is a jealous God and his anger will burn against you, and he will destroy you from the face of the land. Do not put the Lord your God to the test as you did at Massah. Be sure to keep the commands of the Lord your God and the stipulations and decrees he has given you. Do what is right and good in the Lord 's sight, so that it may go well with you and you may go in and take over the good land the Lord promised on oath to your ancestors, thrusting out all your enemies before you, as the Lord said.   In the future, when your son asks you, "What is the meaning of the stipulations, decrees and laws the Lord our God has commanded you?" tell him: "We were slaves of Pharaoh in Egypt, but the Lord brought us out of Egypt with a mighty hand. Before our eyes the Lord sent signs and wonders—great and terrible—on Egypt and Pharaoh and his whole household. But he brought us out from there to bring us in and give us the land he promised on oath to our ancestors. The Lord commanded us to obey all these decrees and to fear the Lord our God, so that we might always prosper and be kept alive, as is the case today. And if we are careful to obey all this law before the Lord our God, as he has commanded us, that will be our righteousness."

Insight:

God's commandment to us is to love Him with all our heart, soul and strength.  The commandment has to be always in the core of our heart so much so that we talk about it the whole day, whether we sit down, walking, lie down or when we are awake or rise up. Whatever we do with our hands, we do it for Him (symbols on our hands), we do it all for His glory, even for those little tiny or deemed unimportant tasks, we have to be faithful to God in doing any single task he entrusted to us. Bind them on our foreheads - we always have God in mind, He is always in our hearts and in our minds.  We feel for Him, we bear the same burden as Him, we stand in His presence for His interest,  His purposes and His burden. This is all by His grace as no one can stand in the presence of God and live, but it is by His grace. When we experience revival and He elevated us, bring us out to a higher position,  when He promoted us, those are not earn By us, He gave them to us freely, not by our single effort,  we must not take it for granted and think big about ourselves.  Instead always humble ourselves before God, God's will for us is that we do not forget Him, fear Him, serve Him only and do not follow the people around us. Otherwise, esp for those who had tasted the goodness of God and turned away from Him after 'eat and satisfied', God is a jealous God and His anger will burn against those and he will destroy them from the face of the land. God does not please with those who test Him. One should not be ignorant of God's justice and His commandments though He is our loving heavenly Father! The more we have tastes His goodness, the more we should humble ourselves before Him! 

Dear heavenly Father,  I'm sorry that I have always been looking over my shoulders and looking at how much You love others, thinking that You probably don't love me as much or I have not been an impressive child to You to make You love me as much or to draw Your attention to me. I have been contented to be the quiet one & the unattractive one to You. But I know you are revealing Yourself and Your love to me in an unique way that only I can understand and no one else can. Father,  I ask that You may let me encounter and experience You like never before,  so that i can no longer doubt about Your love and acceptance of me, so that i will forever be drowned in Your sea of unfailing love for me...I love You, Father!

From Your beloved child,
Diane

17 Apr 2014, before bedtime at 11:46pm

I saw this scripture Isaiah 55:6 in my vision, so I turned to my bible and carried on reading from V6 to v 13 .

Isaiah 55:6-13 NIV

Seek the Lord while he may be found; call on him while he is near.   Let the wicked forsake their ways and the unrighteous their thoughts. Let them turn to the Lord , and he will have mercy on them, and to our God, for he will freely pardon.   "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the Lord .   "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.   As the rain and the snow come down from heaven, and do not return to it without watering the earth and making it bud and flourish, so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,   so is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.   You will go out in joy and be led forth in peace; the mountains and hills will burst into song before you, and all the trees of the field will clap their hands.   Instead of the thornbush will grow the juniper, and instead of briers the myrtle will grow. This will be for the Lord 's renown, for an everlasting sign, that will endure forever."

Insights:
What men perceive as wickedness is not God's perception and definition of wickedness.  For his thought and his way are higher than us, just like the heavens are higher than the earth. Heavens are not singular, but heavens!  All have fall short of glory, no one is righteous,  not even one. God's holiness is far beyond what men can comprehen and far higher standard than the most holiest man that we may think he was. One may think that he is faultless and that his conscious is clear,  but that does not make him innocent,  it is the Lord who judges him.

It's a joy for one to understand the Lord's chaisement,  it will bring forth joy and peace in one's spiritual life. Even the mountains and hills will sing and the trees will be clapping in joy for the repentance and return of the children of God.

16 Apr 2014 my dream

In my dream, I was diving under water with my kids. Putting on snokler as gear. At a point, my kids ran out of breath, I brought her up to the surface , half way through, I was struggling n running out of breath,  so I left her for a little while and went all the way up to surface to catch a deep breath,  I descended again to help her ascend to the surface. 

The Lord has hold my accountability to him for nurturing and caring for my children.  We are in this world (water), we are incapable to live and survive or breath without gearing (snokler) up with the Holy Spirit, intimacy with the Lord and constantly meditating in his holy words. When I ran out of breath,  I have to equip myself first, before I can help my children grow and nurture them as accordance to the Lord's way, not my way...its never easy, but depend fully on the Lord,  each day take a step of faith....

2014年4月15日，晴

主啊，若我说我的罪及其大，我要往哪里去躲避你的灵，我要往哪里才能不见你的面，我即便展开清晨的翅膀飞到地极，就是在那里你的双手也必遮我。。

主啊，我拿什么献给你的，我有什么不是你赐予给我的吗? 我算什么，你竟顾念我，人算什么，你造他比天使卑微。我是空无是处的器皿，一个卑微的容器，我不能成就什么，更没能靠自己得着什么，我依附着你，这是我从前就知晓的，如今我更明白。求你把你的灵浇灌，填满你的仆人，因为我本不配得，乃是因着你的恩典慈爱和怜悯，我得以站立在你的荣耀和至高中。我要住在你的圣所，敬拜你，仰望你的荣美，宣告你的慈爱和尊贵。我要隐藏在基督里, 一生一世服侍你，用你所赐给我一生仅有剩于的年日敬拜你。。

14 Apr 2014 morning prayer

I saw a blood-red heart, waiting for living blood to be pumped into it, to revive it's heartbeat.

I saw wickedness under the daylight. People do not even hide their wicked deeds in the dark, they think they are great, they do it in daylight.

I prayed in one spirit n in one body of Christ with the cell. To stop all child abuse,  couples abuse, sexual immorality between adults to children, between same genders, all kinds of violence in families , toward the weaker parties, elderly, children n spouses, in both christians and pre believers families. Prayed for conviction in the violence executers,  to repent and turned away from their wicked deeds.

Prayed for backslidden Christians for conviction of Holy Spirit n repentance of sins.

Prayed for parents and children hearts to turned inwards towards  each other. Turned away from relationships outside marriages. 

Prayed for desire to play games , watch YouTube,  TV in children to be weaken n subsequently cease completely.  Their hearts will be turned to Jesus,  desire to know Him better.

10 Apr 2014

Morning prayer.

The Lord touches my heart to pray for my two daughters - Sammi & Selyn. The perceptions or misconceptions formed unconsciously in me about my daughters, I need to deal with it n repent from it.

Prayed for disciplineship,  for a mentor.

9 Apr 2014

Morning prayer, thanks to God and Father of our Lord Jesus,  for the spirit of wisdom and revelation,  that I received by faith.

In my vision,  I saw a spontaneous stream of river flowing with living water, we, the saints, are trees that been planted and rooted by our Lord Jesus in this stream of river, in which the ultimate source of the water will never ever be cut off. Amen!

Scriptures reading

1 Peter 3

Peter was restored by Lord Jesus after Jesus resurrected from death.
Believed these been told to him by Jesus.

V 18-20

For Christ died for sins once for all, the righteous for the unrighteous, to bring you to God. He was put to death in the body but made alive in the Spirit, through whom also he went and preached to the spirits, in prison who disobeyed long ago when God waited patiently in the days of Noah while the ark was being built.

8 Apr 2014

I had a short prayer (shorter than usual) in the morning,  the Holy Spirit was prompting me that the Lord going to speak to me n show me something.

While sending some messages to friends whom I feel burden to follow up with, I was prompted to read abt Spiritual gifts. Subsequently,  I came to this 2 YouTube of Patricia King. I received a prophesy from Patricia thru 1 of these YouTube. 

Patricia King: Activating Your Prophetic Gift: http://youtu.be/Vn5TK_3e7vk

Then I was guided to watch her interview with James Goll, on The Seer Anointing.

Patricia King: The Seer Anointing: http://youtu.be/m2Ynb8BWlSs

I remembered I received bags of books from a cell group friend, days ago I saw a book by James Gill but I didn't take note of the title.  Immediately,  I went straight to the bedroom after I finished the video,  and I found James' book on "The Seer".

Dear Heavenly Father,  I give thanks for your guidance through your Holy Spirit to help me on understanding and gaining knowledge of the seer anointing.  Help me Lord in the time to come, I will study your words on such anointing with James book as references n guidance.  I have received by FAITH the impartation from James Goll and Patricia via the videos on the anointing of prophesy and seer. Teach me and give me a humble heart and a lowly spirit, that thy servant may fully submit to the authority of the Holy Spirit,  for your glory and honor to be manifested, by your divine timing and perfect arrangements, may the riches of Your glory be made known to every object of your mercy, whom You have prepared in advance for Your glory! (Roman 9) In Jesus mighty name. Amen.

6 Apr 2014

During worship service at CSCC,  I saw a huge angel position at the left of the stage of worship.  Each one in congregation is accompanied by an angel accordingly.  Lord Jesus was walking along the path in the central.

Brightest Light filled the auditorium. At mid of worship, when some people were still walking into the auditorium,  I saw darkness invaded part of congregation sitted at left (facing the stage).