I come to You, my Lord, a empty vessel.  No dream, no vision, no knowledge,  no wisdom, nothing,  nothing in me.

Fill me, Lord! With Your dream, with Your vision, fill me with Jesus.  Thus is all I ask and all I need....

I wanted to write this as a testimony for the visions I have in regards to the elder son (my eldest uncle) of my grandma (my mother's mother).

I saw a light shine down from the gate of heaven,  my uncle was on his knees,  and the light of the Lord shine on him, he was being transformed by the light, from his head to his toe, he was as pure and as white as snow. 

Not only one time, but I had the same vision every time I interceded for him.

Another vision, I saw him running hus way towards the open arms of Jesus.

Amen! Amen! Amen!

I requested my youngest aunt,  whom is staying with him, to claim these scriptures daily, in the presence of my uncle, who is yet to be saved n who us suffering from cancer.

彼得前书 2:9-10

你将成为神君尊的祭司，是圣洁的国度，是属上帝的子民，你将宣扬那召你出黑暗入奇妙光明者的美德。  “你从前不是子民， 现在却成了上帝的子民； 从前未曾蒙怜悯， 现在却蒙了怜悯。”

3 things the Lord gave me.

The Sacrifice Table - a place you sacrifice all your feelings, your hurts and your price and your selfishness

The Secret Garden- a place where you behold My beauty and embrace Me

The Fire of the Holy Spirit- lead you to the right path of righteousness,  holiness,  humility and obedience,  submission

"You know what these are, my child. " the Lord said. "As you walk with Me,  you are going to need them,  these ought to be always in your heart , always stay as your vision, for the whole of your life."

Amen!

23 Nov 2013, morning, I found my long lost secret place with my Lord! I found it! The reward of walking in obedience to His Holy Ghost.

I have found the secret place, to behold Your beauty, to embrace You.  :) there is valley, mountain and a huge water fall. You sitted with me on the cliff, the peace that surpasses all understanding,  I'm in complete rest in You.

The Lord said to me :"remember yr hearts desire? Yr desire is simply me, I clothed you as a bride, I am your spiritual husband.  When other was talking about blessing in materials, you said all you wanted is me. This same place now you find it again.  My child,  I am always here. I knew and I know your hearts desire and it pleases Me. I am your reward , to those who seek Me, and you are on the right track, my child.

Remember that I am always here, at the secret garden,  a place only  Me and you. "

Lord,  I just want to soak in your presence. All other things are not important, for You are my everything. Your grace is sufficient for me.  Every time I walk in obedience to the Holy Ghost,  Lord you elevated me. :)

I will enter into this secret place,  to behold Your beauty. You clothed me with humility and righteousness,  there is none other like You. In all my ways I want to acknowledge you, my Lord and my Saviour!

I know You will always be there as i enter into the secret place.  "Every time and every moment, My child, My precious child" He smiled at me and I smiled at Him.

6th October 2013 , my first Sunday service at Cornerstone Community Church. I decided this the church I should get myself and my daughters rooted in.

After listening to Pastor Yang sermon on Being planted in the house.  I sense the Lord called me to be planted at Cornerstone,  at least for now.  I feel so grateful and thankful to the Lord,  for not forsaken or given up on a stubborn donkey like me. Pastor Yang preached the privilege and blessings of being planted by the Lord in a church,  I m so so grateful of not being left out during this period of nearing to end time, that the Lord is re gathering His people and preparing a troop for His Kingdom!

Amen! And let my life be hidden in Christ,  at least for now. ...

22 Nov 2013, passed mid night 12 am of 21 Nov 2012.

I had a hard time getting sleep,  my hubby was coughing,  my elder daughter was coughing. .I was listening to the sermon of Dale Fife,  keys to intimacy with God. The specific message of soaking oneself in the presence of God impresses me and I thought to myself,  I have lost my first love to Jesus when I used to be clothed as a bride in my vision.

So after finished listening to the whole sermon,  I decided to relax myself n trh getting myself soak in Him.  However,  to my shock,  I saw Lord Jesus' white robe turned to stain. I did not understand why....

Tossing on bed, my head getting heavy n I couldn't get to sleep though I was supreme tired. I woke to get a couple of pain killers to ease my pain.

While lying on bed, I start to speak in tongue, then the Lord's Holy Spirit convicted me with what I did during the day.  Didn't you pray for righteousness,  holiness n truthfulness n transparency, didn't you pledge for no deception to come forth from yr tongue n lip? Then why did you say something untruth at work today? You did not prepare the trial balance in the specific format required of you,  you did not tally the FS with the TB,  why then did you say that you did?? Why were you half heartened in giving to the elderly today? Why didn't you give out of sincerity,  out of your heart? You hesitated in the amount of money to spend for his food, you were reluctant today. ...

I prayed to God, my spirit yearned for forgiveness. I approached him by faith to plead for forgiveness.  He's like a father pointing out all my faults,  his standard is much higher, he has bring me a level higher in my walk with Him.  He said if that's what I have pledge in my walk with Him, he's pointing out my faults n transgression to bring me up higher to Him. 

I begin to see the path narrower n narrower.  It's not easy to carry my cross and follow Jesus,  cos that would mean to put down myself,  my needs, my argument,  my pride,  my ways of doing thing and walk in obedience to Him. ..but as long as my reward is Jesus. ..