Wednesday, May 21, 2014
9:44 AM

I been very tired ever since I started my new assignment on last Wed with GSK.  After spending wonderful past 3 months, though without job, but most fruitful season as I spent my daily devotion with the Lord.

Last night was the last lesson on "Journey to Israel" at Cornerstone.
God spoke to my heart but words couldn't express now.

Still asking and praying to the Lord to give me wisdom and revelation in His calling for me. I amen to the term "spiritual barrenness" Dr Brian Bailey used in his book. I came across it in the training menu. I want to and desire to go thru spiritual barrenness. In fact I think I am going thru right now a season of helplessness.  I find that I can't do anything at all, I'm an empty vessel, zero and nothing.  I only have the Holy Spirit, apart from Him, I'm paralysed,  dead n breathless. I can't imagine a day without communion with Him.

And I can sense the Holy Spirit speaking to me about anointing.  I desire but never eagerly seek for it, anointing coming solely and only from the Lord. I do not eagerly go for it unless God has reveal His calling for me at His perfect timing.  I keep this in my heart. Unless I given my all and all to You and prepared to give up my life for you, otherwise I'm not qualify to receive any anointing.

Deal with my inner most being,  Lord!
I yearn to Your discipline,  search me and test me. Create in me a clean heart and restore Your righteousness in me. Fill me fully with the Spirit of Christ,  that I may know nothing except Your mind, Your desire, Your will and Your heartbeat. Thank you Lord!