pro.14.8-15.nkjv The wisdom of the prudent is to understand his way, But the folly of fools is deceit.
The simple believes every word, But the prudent considers well his steps.

Introspection - definition

What is your default mode?

James 5.13-16.nkjv
Is anyone among you suffering? Let him pray. Is anyone cheerful? Let him sing psalms. Is anyone among you sick? Let him call for the elders of the church, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord. And the prayer of faith will save the sick, and the Lord will raise him up. And if he has committed sins, he will be forgiven. Confess your trespasses to one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The effective, fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much.

James.1.2-3.nkjv
My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience.

James.1.19-20.nkjv
So then, my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath; for the wrath of man does not produce the righteousness of God.

Reprogrammed new nature in you

Self is as sinful as sin.
Our self need to be crucified.
The cross deal with our sinfulness
We must see sins the way He sees

1 Thessalonians 5.16-18.nkjv Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.

Be the true/real you
DNA of the king

http://bible.com/114/luk.3.5-6.nkjv Every valley shall be filled And every mountain and hill brought low; The crooked places shall be made straight And the rough ways smooth; And all flesh shall see the salvation of God.' "

1) God is ultimate reality
2) to dwell in God's presence mean we must approach reality
3)

He bring valley up - falling below true self
He bring mountain down - too religious
Crooked straight - out of your true self
Rough road smooth
- beside your true self : 2 Cor 5:14

Luke 15

Real
Consistent

1) Be still - sit, silent. Biblical meditation
2) acknowledge your extremes
3) check yr default modes to see if any reprogramming might be necessary
4) be confident in God's love
5) our goal is always to leave behind a deposit of God

2 Corinthians 12

My life was as broken as my uncle.
The Lord has called me to 1 year of consecration prayers, to learn to wait upon Him, hear Him and surrender to His instruction and Lordship.

The work of God is to let the Holy Spirit does the transformation of life through His servant/vessel. The ultimate goal is men and women to conform to the image of Christ. Unless I am FULLY and COMPLETELY yield to the Spirit of God, I am not able to do it. If God did not call, I go in vain. If God did not send, I go in vain. If God did not annoint, those were simply works of carnal men. The goal is not to build ministry, to make known ministry nor to make known men. Those are idols.

The work of God is the work of the Holy Spirit does through earthly vessels. Not the work of men. We cannot do the work of God, we are only instruments of the Holy Spirit. Let the Holy Spirit fills us and He does the work of God. How? I am enrolling into the school of the Holy Spirit.

gal.4.16.asv So then am I become your enemy, by telling you the truth?

jer.9.3.asv And they bend their tongue, as it were their bow, for falsehood; and they are grown strong in the land, but not for truth: for they proceed from evil to evil, and they know not me, saith Jehovah.

Jesus died for us to know the truth

rom.16.17.nkjv Now I urge you, brethren, note those who cause divisions and offenses, contrary to the doctrine which you learned, and avoid them.

Isaiah 52:8 eye to eye

Confront false teaching
Never stop to speak the truth

I don't think I can truly love people if I do not hv strong conviction of what is ultimately good

2 commands
1) watch out for those who cause division
2) avoid such people

*Fundamental issues - Roman 16 we MUST take a stand
Marginal issues - Roman 14:5 as long not stumbling block to those we love

Leviticus 14

1) I took a piece of soap and entered into a bathroom to wash myself.

2) Sammi was driving a big truck (belong to her fren), her friend and me were sitting behind. But her driving was making me anxious as she almost hit the  road fence and a few children crossing the road. In the dream, I had a thought of taking over her as driver but she finally already reached the destination.

I was crossing from this side of the road (journey in life or a choice) to the other side to buy breakfast (food/meat: work of God). Vehicles (christian ministries) coming from right side (natural) stopped and I had no problem to cross and reached middle of 2 roads. Vehicles (christian ministries) from the left side (spiritual) at the other road were heavy and moving fast, I was not able to cross over. Then I noticed that it was actually green light for the vehicles but red light for the pedestrian. But I was wondering why the vehicles of the right direction road stopped. I turned back and gave up crossing the road with vehicles coming from the left. I did not get to buy my breakfast.

Vehicle (car, boat, buss, plane) symbols of ministry for a Christian. For non-believers vehicles represent the ride of life or a style of living

Bread-this is symbolic of the broken body of Christ and the fellowship of friends, Matt. 26:26

Road-symbolic of a person's journey in life or a choice. If the road is bumpy and hard it can symbolize a rough period in life. If the road is smooth it symbolizes God's intervention on your behalf, Lk.3:5 

Roadblock-symbolic of not being able to move towards a goal, Lam. 3:9

Road sign-a marker for direction in life, Jer. 31:21

A common language in heaven. It's the language of the Holy Spirit. We are of diversity in language and cultures on earth, but people of God understand each other because of our common language in heaven.

I am learning to listen to the Holy Spirit in who I am to pray for for the day, He is my Master and my Lord, I do not decide the day tasks or mission, I only do what He tells me to. A servant will listen and follow what the master said and  commanded.

I heard He said "asked of Me to grant you visitation to the place where I dwell - heaven."

I am praying for my uncles, four uncles - lim swee seng, lim swee hua, lim swee Hong & swee Liang.

The words of God will not be just mèrely words and alphabetical when I read, but spiritual food to chew on. My heart will not be foolish to the words of God but be enlightened and receive deep revelation from the Holy Spirit.

Mission team to be full of the Holy Spirit. Decreed spirit of prophecy and spirit of evangelism on team members. Boldness to share Jesus with clarity, precision and truth. Will not shy away, timid or back off. The Spirit of God works through team members, the love of God flow to the children and staff through the vessels of God. The words, activities and gifts are tools we used to share the gospel, those are not the goal. Our goal is to point them to Jésus so that when we leave after 6 days, they will not remember us, but they remember Jesus for the whole of their lives.

I was grieve after I woke up from my dream. In the dream, I pushed my daughters away, I told them not to disturb me and my daily routine.
I was mean and scolded them.

Lord, deal with my dirty heart. I am such a hypocrite....burn the dross in my heart, break me like the potter broke the cray.
Affirm my heart that after this process of burning, killing and tearing down, this vessel will only belong to You and You alone. No more selfish thoughts, no more self, no more pride, no more resistance, no more running away from You, no more self righteousness, no more haughty in me. Such a vessel is unworthy without Your moulding and shaping. I am at a loss apart from You Lord. I find nothing worthy in me Lord. My heart is grieve and sadden, never have I feel such unworthiness before. Never have I realise I have not been one with You, I have not been one with Holy Spirit. I am at the zero point, the starting point, the lowest ground. Until You raise me, I shall not n dare not say anymore....

Grandma prepared table of food. She sat with her "family" to eat. My feeling in the dream was she no longer needs me, she was doing well with her "family". I asked her for some food (vegetables only) and went away with my cell leader's wife, Lee Lin. I have to be quick before Lee Lin left without me. I felt a bit sad abt my grandma but I was able to leave her becos I knew she was with her new "family". I do not belong to them.

I was sitting with a man on the floor. Several others and I witness him using a knife to cut deep into the flesh at his thigh, he was deeply in pain. Then he cut deeper and a piece of his flesh was opened up, I could see all that were under the flesh. The pain was indescribable. He was trembling but he insisted & was so determined to have it cut away because he knew that the pain of cutting away the flesh was nothing compared to letting the flesh remained in him. There maybe pain during the process but after that he will be free from his flesh.

Thigh-a symbol of strength, Ps. 45:3

rom.8.1-11.nkjv There  is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit. For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has made me free from the law of sin and death. For what the law could not do in that it was weak through the flesh, God did by sending His own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh, on account of sin: He condemned sin in the flesh, that the righteous requirement of the law might be fulfilled in us who do not walk according to the flesh but according to the Spirit. For those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who  live according to the Spirit, the things of the Spirit. For to be carnally minded is death, but to be spiritually minded is life and peace. Because the carnal mind is enmity against God; for it is not subject to the law of God, nor indeed can be. So then, those who are in the flesh cannot please God. But you are not in the flesh but in the Spirit, if indeed the Spirit of God dwells in you. Now if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he is not His. And if Christ is in you, the body is dead because of sin, but the Spirit is life because of righteousness. But if the Spirit of Him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, He who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through His Spirit who dwells in you.

rom.8.12-17.nkjv Therefore, brethren, we are debtors—not to the flesh, to live according to the flesh. For if you live according to the flesh you will die; but if by the Spirit you put to death the deeds of the body, you will live. For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, these are sons of God. For you did not receive the spirit of bondage again to fear, but you received the Spirit of adoption by whom we cry out, "Abba, Father." The Spirit Himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God, and if children, then heirs—heirs of God and joint heirs with Christ, if indeed we suffer with Him, that we may also be glorified together.

gal.5.16-21.nkjv I say then: Walk in the Spirit, and you shall not fulfill the lust of the flesh. For the flesh lusts against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; and these are contrary to one another, so that you do not do the things that you wish. But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under the law. Now the works of the flesh are evident, which are: adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lewdness, idolatry, sorcery, hatred, contentions, jealousies, outbursts of wrath, selfish ambitions, dissensions, heresies, envy, murders, drunkenness, revelries, and the like; of which I tell you beforehand, just as I also told you in time past, that those who practice such things will not inherit the kingdom of God.

In the dream, I asked my grandma (past; spiritual inheritance; inherited traits,faults & sins)  a question:" do you no longer love me?"

She said:"yes, I no longer will love you."

I weeped and weeped with a scarf to cover my mouth. But I refused to let her see I was crying.

I weeped over my separation from my past, the old self. I am a new creation.
My fallen nature be crucified with Christ at the cross, the Holy Spirit will take over my life. I'm no longer I that live but Christ lives in me.

Ocean-if you are in a boat the ocean may be a symbol of the journey of life. If you are swimming in the ocean it can symbolize exploring deep places in life. A stormy or raging ocean is symbolic of the nations, Ps. 65:7

Sea-humanity: (note: sea (salt) water is undrinkable). People; nations; gentiles; barrier. Salt water= spirit of the world; unclean; source of evil. Undertow= undercurrent; discontent; murmuring ( Matthew 20:11)
Isaiah 60:5, Psalm 68:23, James 3:11-12

Boat/ship: support: life; person; recreation; spare time. Large ship=the church. Small boat: personal ministry.

Chased-to dream of being chased is symbolic of being pursued by a spiritual or physical enemy, Deut. 1:44. If you are being chased by authority figures like police officers, school principals, or other adults, it may symbolize a problem with submitting yourself to authority

Nun-symbolic of piety or dedication to God, 1 Cor. 7:32-34

Sting-symbolic of the mental torment of demonic oppres­sors, Num. 21:6  

Rat-symbolic of a person with low character, morals, and ethics

Bear-symbolic of ferocity, 2 Kings 2:24
Destroyer: destruction; evil curse (thru inheritance or personal sin, include financial loss or hardship); economic loss; danger; opposition; Russia

Daughter-uniqueness, Song. 6:9

Directions-to dream of a geographical direction can signal a location of interest for prayer. A direction can also be an an­swer from God concerning a move in life

Right-natural; authority; power; strength of humanity (flesh), or the power of God revealed through flesh (Christ or church)

Feet-symbolic of a journey or a messenger. Not having any feet is symbolic of trusting in a fool, Prov. 26:6. Dirty feet are symbolic of sin, Song. 5:3

In my dream, we include my family (direct and indirect family) (relatives: spiritual family or natural family) were being "chase" (pursued) by the water raging out from the stormy ocean (nations, spirit of the world) from the right direction (strength of humanity). A ship (the church) was being wrecked by the stormy wave. The people on the ship were escaping from the raging sea. We ran and reached at the junction with a path ahead of us and with 2 other ways on the left and right respectively. While we were deciding which way to escape, we saw that the chasing water was raging from the right path. So we ran straight ahead to the way ahead of us. A Nun (dedication to God, consecution to God, unpolluted by the world=angel of God) appeared and let us into a holding room (a position of waiting for Christ) to escape from the raging water.

While entering, I was helping to regulate the people, a few students (young teenager) were taking their own sweet time, I was angry and asked them to enter quickly as there were people behind them waiting.

After the water passed by, I went out of the room with my husband to look down to the ocean for the stingray. We went down while the slope was still not steep and returned to bring our children. The holding room was located on top of a cliff at a significant height from the sea. A steep slope seperate the holding room and the ocean. When we wanted to bring the children to see the stingray, the slope turned to be very steep. There were people down there and several stingrays swimming in the ocean. A ship (the church) was destroyed by the storm and people escaping from the ship.

I was with one of my children but the slope was too steep, I couldn't go down.
Another of my daughter jumped down from the cliff with my 3rd uncle and they hit the ground, turned into 2 rats (low moral), escaped from a passing by vehicle and turned into a white baby bear (ferocity) and another animal.

A scene:
My younger daughter ran to me bare footed.

Barefoot: without preparation; without understanding; without protection; without salvation; novice (新手) ; easily offended (tender feet)

1st dream
I asked my grandma:" You do not love me anymore, you dislike me?"
She said:"yes"
I cried.

2nd dream
I was with my family, my mum, my aunt, hubby's sisters. We came to market place with 4 directions. We walked thru a path and came to a t junction, we were deciding whether to proceed ahead or to turn left or right. When I saw with my eyes the sea was roaring and a ship was being destroyed by the wave. The water in the ocean was rushing from the right to the direction where we were. We quickly proceed ahead and came to a holding place. A Nun let us in. I was helping to regulate the people after me to enter the holding place. Some chij students were still moving slowly taking their time, I scolded them and advised them to be quick.

After we settled down, hubby and me n children , we went out and looked down to the ocean, spectacular view, we saw several stingrays swimming and people still moving our of a ship. My 3rd uncle and Selyn walked thru the steep cliff and jumped down to the ground, they turned into rats, a car ran over them bur they were not injured.  they got off the road and turned into 2 animals - a white bear and another animal.

At whatever spiritual level God has promoted you, there is always repentance, confession of sin and humility. Every level has a washroom.
At 1st Level (beginning) , there is a washroom. At 2nd level (divide, seperate; discern; implied witness), there is a washroom (or bathroom - prayer of repentance; confession of offences or sins to God or to another person).
Always judge your own heart, humble yourself before God and confess your sin and ask for forgiveness. Cleansing is necessary at every level of your walk with God. You are bring tested (examination) at every level of spirituality. Your intimacy and talking/communication (English - the language I am using now to pray) with God must not be weakened, but must be strengthen.

At the 2nd floor washroom, there was no Q and no people. People walking at higher spiritual level had forgotton or had thought that they are "perfect" and no longer needed to reflect and approach God for forgiveness. No one was found in the "washroom" (prayer of repentance) at 2nd floor, My people have forgotton to humble and confess and seek My forgiveness. Repent, you need to do so at all level of walk with Me.  Repent from your pride and self sufficient and self righteousness. I desire mercy and not sacrifice. Beware of pride and ignorance enter into your heart when you think you are already perfect.

I dreamt that I was sitting for examination. I told my friend I was worry abt my weakest subject - English.

While waiting for exam to start, we went to toilet/washroom near the exam room at 2nd floor as it was not crowded. Many people preferred to go to washroom at the 1st floor. But we were glad that the one at 2nd floor had no Q at all, it was clean and neat.

The feeling was calm and there were no panic or anxiety due to exam. We seemed well prepared for the exam. I only worry of my English as it was my weakest subject in the dream.

In reality, I had always been struggling with English ever since kindergartens.

I decreed the Spirit of prophesy over myself, over the church and Singapore.
I ask for gift of discernment, dreams & vision and interpretation of dreams.

"My child, your destiny is Spiritual inheritance and authority. It comes DIRECT and straight from Me, not from approval of man, not from any christian organisation, not work hand down by other christian.
I have prepared a table for you, it is from Me. The journey you are in, the places you went and have been going, those are the routes and process that I will bring you to your destiny, those are NOT your destiny. it cannot be seen by physical eyes but it is more real than anything you could see with your physical eyes. I have promised and I will bring it to pass if you believe and trust and continue to believe and keep on believing.

Daily intimacy with Me is irreplaceable. It cannot be replaced by ministries, corporate gathering or religion practise. I take no gladness in divided heart. I want your heart perfect and in full, undivided.
You can make any mistake on where you should be, what ministry you should involve in, etc, but daily intimacy, waiting upon Me and hearing My heart is irreplaceable by any of this. Leave them if they hinder your daily intimacy with ME. Your time with Me should be your priority at all time. A son cannot call a son if he has no heart for the Father, if he has never cry for his Father's heart. "

I said:" Lord what kind of son am I if I have never know you, never see you, walk with you, talk with you, hear from you, sit with you, cry because of You, waiting for You at the door of Your chamber...reveal You to me that I may know You as a son know his Father and as a Father knows His son. That I will be so in ONE with you that I hate what you hate and love what You love. That in You I have all my being and can't breath and live apart from You. That I will have no peace if I did not daily intimacy with You."

Studying-symbolic of a wearisome activity, Eccl. 12:12

Bed-a place of intimacy, Heb. 13:4, rest, or privacy, 2 Kings 6:12.
If a person is sick in bed it can symbolize a sinful lifestyle, Ezek. 23:17.
A fragrant, clean bed is symbolic of righteous living, Prov. 7:17

Bedroom-symbolic of a private area, 2 Kings 6:12 
Rest: Salvation; meditation; intimacy; privacy; peace; covenant ( as in marriage) Psalm 4:4, 139:8 Isaiah 28:18-20 Hebrew 13:4

5-a symbol of fruitfulness and blessing, Gen. 1:20-23
Serve: Works; services Gen 1:20,23
Gen 41:34
God's grace to man, responsibility of man

Brother-symbolic of Christ, Prov. 18:24, other Christians, or adversity, Prov. 17:17
Self: Spiritual or natural brother; someone he reminds you of (also friend)
Friend- Self: the character or circumstance of one's friend reveals something abt oneself.

In the dream, my aunt told me she had a visitor (a brother of my schoolmate who is tall and big - strong) and wanted to swop the study with the bedroom. The visitor will be here to work thru the night. But the study was rather dusty, so she wanted to let the visitor stayed in our bedroom. So we transformed the study into a bedroom by cleaning up the place and placed 5 beds in the study. 5 beds were enough for our family. I took the bedsheet from the bed that was originally placed in the study and removed the stuffs that were placed on the bed and I took the bedsheet or cover to shake off the dirt and dust and it became clean. So that when the visitor needed rest during his work, he may rest on the bed with clean bedsheet. The visitor was suppose to be a brother of my secondary school classmate, this classmate in real life is huge and tall and big in size.

I feel the Lord is saying to the church to rest (bed) from wearisome activity (study) and have intimacy (change the study into a bedroom) with Him, to enjoy fruitfulness and blessings (5 beds) from the Lord. His yoke is not heavy and not burdensome. The Lord/Christ (brother of friend) will do or had done the works, we need to trust and rest in Him and enjoy intimacy with Him.

I prayed for dream and vision and wisdom and revelation before I sleep on 13 Oct 15 night.

My aunt and me were cleaning up the bed. The cover of the bed was full of dust, I took it and shake to remove the dust. Aunt swop our bedroom with the study room because a guy was coming to do a work. She placed 5 mattress at the study room, 2 double deck bed and 3 placed side by side neatly, she said just nice for us all to sleep there. And the guy can work at the bedroom for the whole night.

I was in a bus with Ps Yang sitting behind me and 2 person sitting beside me. I was sharing the testimony of Jesus and the amazing grace of God. I was sharing on the old testaments law of Moses and the new testament Grace of God thru Jesus Christ. Ps Yang was smiling and expressed his agreement to me. The ladies beside me busy chatting.

I was managing a stall, Ps Yang was there. He took a short walk to other stalls, then he walked away smiling.

The feeling was good and full filing.