Saturday, April 29, 2017
12:20 AM
Dream 27 April 17
I came home from work. Without changing n bath, I fell asleep on my bed feeling very very exhausted. Only just a while I had a dream. I was in the bus but it took me to somewhere strange to me. The bus stopped at a carpark on the top floor I had no idea where I was. I alight and trying to find my way thinking I should find my way to take a bus from opposite direction. Suddenly the surrounding turned dark, a huge vehicle droving towards me and I couldn't see anything in the dark. I tried to switch on my hp for light but it didn't work. I could see the vehicle coming towards me and while I tried all way to avoid, I went beyond the safety metal bar and thought I was going to fall from high floor to the ground. I shouted "what happen?? Ah...."
God told me that I have to face my fear in order to overcome the fear. I cannot avoid or pretend it's not there. I cannot be scared of darkness if I'm called to invade the darkness. I do not have to be scared of the enemies, the enemies better be scared of me. I have abandoned myself, totally, what else can I loose? I am all His!! I can afford to loose cos I hold nothing. In the dream, darkness was surrounding me and I shouted I screamed but somehow I have hope. I saw the vehicle in the darkness and I couldn't see it at one moment but the next moment I saw it again. I couldn't see it doesn't mean the evil didn't exist. It is there all the time and I'm in battle or war all the time, regardless of I see it or not. Beyond the metal bar there was platform, I was standing there I didn't fall but I was fearful cos I thought I was falling but I wasn't. God does not call me to operate in safety zone, I have to go beyond the safety zone, that is where light is needed. I can see the enemies, why scare? God enables me to see cos He knows that I will do something about it.
The dream I had many years back and I know it's still valid to God and if so it's still valid to me.
I bow before His throne with total surrender. I saw His white robe from His knee down to His feet. Words couldn't explain that experience and what I felt. Maybe I was taken to heaven before His throne? I remember what it feel until today and will remember forever. Nothing and no one else could ever get in between Him and me.