What do you see?
Are you ready?
Do you trust Me? Do you really trust Me?
How far would you go with Me?
Do you continue even when you are bruised in body yet still strong in spirit?
Do you want to know what's the fear of the Lord?
Do you really want to know?
Have you been so utterly broken like a broken vessel?
Would you let Me pour you like pouring oil or water out of the vessel?
Do you hesitate? Do you hold back?
Do you choose radical because I am good I am always good?
Warriors only march forward with assuredness of who they are fighting to and from whom they are sent forth.
Do you allow Me to train you as warrior?
Do you willing to empty yourself and let Me take over your life?
Do you allow Me to do whatever I want?
Do you back off?
Do you see what the world see or do you see what I see?
What do you see?

I will say to God, 'Do not condemn me; Show me why You contend with me. Does  it seem good to You that You should oppress, That You should despise the work of Your hands, And smile on the counsel of the wicked? Do You have eyes of flesh? Or do You see as man sees? Are Your days like the days of a mortal man? Are Your years like the days of a mighty man, That You should seek for my iniquity And search out my sin, Although You know that I am not wicked, And there  is no one who can deliver from Your hand? 'Your hands have made me and fashioned me, An intricate unity; Yet You would destroy me. Remember, I pray, that You have made me like clay. And will You turn me into dust again? Did You not pour me out like milk, And curdle me like cheese, Clothe me with skin and flesh, And knit me together with bones and sinews? You have granted me life and favor, And Your care has preserved my spirit. 'And these things You have hidden in Your heart; I know that this was with You: If I sin, then You mark me, And will not acquit me of my iniquity. If I am wicked, woe to me; Even if I am righteous, I cannot lift up my head. I  am full of disgrace; See my misery! If my  head is exalted, You hunt me like a fierce lion, And again You show Yourself awesome against me. You renew Your witnesses against me, And increase Your indignation toward me; Changes and war are ever with me.
Job 10:2‭-‬17 NKJV

You guided my conception and formed me in the womb. Job 10:10 NLT
In Hebrew: Did You not pour me out like milk, And curdle me like cheese

"I am disgusted with my life. Let me complain freely. My bitter soul must complain. I will say to God, 'Don't simply condemn me— tell me the charge you are bringing against me. What do you gain by oppressing me? Why do you reject me, the work of your own hands, while smiling on the schemes of the wicked? Are your eyes like those of a human? Do you see things only as people see them? Is your lifetime only as long as ours? Is your life so short that you must quickly probe for my guilt and search for my sin? Although you know I am not guilty, no one can rescue me from your hands. "'You formed me with your hands; you made me, yet now you completely destroy me. Remember that you made me from dust— will you turn me back to dust so soon? You guided my conception and formed me in the womb. You clothed me with skin and flesh, and you knit my bones and sinews together. You gave me life and showed me your unfailing love. My life was preserved by your care. "'Yet your real motive— your true intent— was to watch me, and if I sinned, you would not forgive my guilt. If I am guilty, too bad for me; and even if I'm innocent, I can't hold my head high, because I am filled with shame and misery. And if I hold my head high, you hunt me like a lion and display your awesome power against me. Again and again you witness against me. You pour out your growing anger on me and bring fresh armies against me. "'Why, then, did you deliver me from my mother's womb? Why didn't you let me die at birth? It would be as though I had never existed, going directly from the womb to the grave. I have only a few days left, so leave me alone, that I may have a moment of comfort before I leave—never to return— for the land of darkness and utter gloom. It is a land as dark as midnight, a land of gloom and confusion, where even the light is dark as midnight.'" Job 10:1‭-‬22 NLT

You were created for a reason different from the person beside you and others. You are God's unique idea. You are created for a purpose.you hv an assignment.  No one else is created to do the things you do. There is a unique calling.
Pay attention to the yes that burn inside you. It is not going to be replicated. This yes on your life is very vital.
Jesus carried a yes in Him. He was here for a specific purpose that no body else can do it.

Luke 8:40-42
People are desperate to get to Jesus. They know Jesus carry the answer.
Do you want to know what God's calling for your life?
If you are not willing to say no, you not able to say yes to what God puts in your life.

When Jesus said yes, between Jesus and the yes was a crowd of desperate people.
People know you carry the release of bondages, they don't care what is your 'yes' within you.
Jesus only does what He sees the Father does.
His food is to do the will of God.
Jesus is not afraid to say 'no' to get to His 'yes' from the Father.

Jesus is not like us.
×When we know He is not like us, we try to change Him.

We carry a ministry of freedom to others.
We get too excited and we cross the boundary

Acts 6
People may not be happy when you say no
Pple cross boundary of level of access to your privacy

Psalm 24:3

Luke 9:1 out of many, 12 disciples had unique access to Jesus

Mark 5:37 among the 12, Peter James and John had even more unique access to Jesus.

John 13:23 John, whom Jesus loves, had unique access to Jesus more than the 12

How do we do with disrespectful people?

It's challenging to set boundary in relationship

Defines boundaries
To keep in what I want to keep in
-Keep what is precious in
To keep out what I want to keep out
To protect the priorities of my life
(Time, energy, etc)

Nobody is accountable to my 'yes', my time, energy, family etc
It is my 'yes' and I am accountable

Jesus is there even before I enter into the intimate room with Him
He knows everything.

Keep your love on (KYLO)
never turn your love off

Isaiah 10:13
Every boundary you set communicate your value
E.g. if I place a wallet where everyone has access, I send the message that I do not value my wallet

Are you sick n tired of it yet?

Overreaction - setting boundary with anger
×Use fear to manipulate environment to satisfy our needs - witchcraft
I train you how to treat me - by overreacting. By setting boundary with anger.
When anger goes away, the boundary is still not set.

Daniel 7:25 scheme of satan is to wear down people of God

Priority and able to say no and do your 'yes'

Boundary communicates value and access

Setting firm boundaries
Learn to require respect & responsibility
(My life is worth dieing for and Jesus proved that)
Not my whining and complaints that set boundary

Tell others what you are going to do

Remember: Words make appeals but actions create requirements

Take part in conversation only that are respectful. Communicate the value.

2 Tim 1:7 God gives us spirit of power, of love and of self control.

Abraham walked before God
Enoch walked with God
The Israelite walked after God
We walk in God
The Holy Spirit is in us.
'But' - human responsiblilty

Ephesians 2:8,9

We are complete in Him
Everything we need to walk our walk, He is enough for us

2:10 we are His workmanship

Contradicts the character of God to preach that God in His sovereignty save some only.

2:2

How much do you retain when you read God's words?

Understanding it and apply it!

We are not walking according to the cause of this world.
we seek the face of God.
God's personal involvement in our lives.

How and in what degree of glory? How much brightness? What glory do we give God?

*The purpose is to glorify God.*

By grace we are saved. Not by work

We are to be counted worthy

We are saved to be called to maturity, sonship perfection, conformity to the characters of God,
Holy and accepted in His sight
Not fall short of Him

Walk according to the cause of the source.
We walk in victory.

1) Walk in love.
Love is a choice. Show me you love me. Don't tell me.

Therefore be imitators of God as dear children. And walk in love, as Christ also has loved us and given Himself for us, an offering and a sacrifice to God for a sweet-smelling aroma.
Eph 5:1‭-‬2 NKJV

If you love me keep my commandments.

What manner of love?

For this reason I bow my knees to the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, from whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named, that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man, that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height— to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.
Eph 3:14‭-‬19 NKJV

Paul prayed that they could comprehend God's love.

Love of God is greater than knowledge
(The knowledge of evil make us difficult to love our enemies.)
Do not let the knowledge hinder us from loving

2) Walk in the light
For you were once darkness, but now you  are  light in the Lord. Walk as children of light (for the fruit of the Spirit is in all goodness, righteousness, and truth), finding out what is acceptable to the Lord.
Eph 5:8‭-‬10 NKJV

The Truth is a Person Jesus

The knowledge of truth is not the truth.
The Truth is Jesus
Need revelation and quickening in our spirit to know Jesus.

Jesus praise God for the Way Peter got the revelation of who Jesus is.
Hebrew meaning of Peter and the Rock is different

We know the words more than we obey.
The part we obey comes through revelation.

3) Walk in wisdom
For you were once darkness, but now you  are  light in the Lord. Walk as children of light (for the fruit of the Spirit is in all goodness, righteousness, and truth), finding out what is acceptable to the Lord. See then that you walk circumspectly, not as fools but as wise,
Eph 5:8‭-‬10‭, ‬15 NKJV

Wisdom - The ability to handle knowledge

Redeeming the time - cannot buy time. It does not mean to buy back
To rescue from lost. Use yr time correctly.

4) Walk in humility

But He gives more grace. Therefore He says: "God resists the proud, But gives grace to the humble."
Jas 4:6 NKJV

Refer not to saving grace but The empowering grace of God

People are problem. I'm biggest problem.
God gives us grace.

Last night I asked the Lord and I seek Him this morning for the meaning of the dream of ladder and right foot sandal. I asked questions as sis Esther advised me.

From sis Esther:
For tonite if u still awake...just ask Father God to 'close doors' that you have unknowingly opened.
Then allow Father God to minister to u in your sleep/dreams or as you lay in bed by praying
"Father God, please show me what the dream means.
How do you see me?
What do You want to say to me?
I allow you.
I open my heart and ears to You."
Then just relax and expect to receive from Him.

You ask Father God to interpret the dream by asking...
"Father God...why am i tired in the dream?
Why m i looking for right sandal...etc...each detail of dream....n for each ques...listen for His answer n respond accordingly like above...

So i m leading u back to relate to Father God and for Him to give you the answers...so that it is personal and you shall be deeply ministered and touched ...

Pray covering of Jesus' Blood over u n family n ask for Him to come and minister n angels be released...

Receive His blessings!!!

He is with you to bless you!!! And to set you free bec He loves you very very much!!!!!!!!!!

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The Lord impressed in me the scripture "one thing is needed.."

"Now it happened as they went that He entered a certain village; and a certain woman named Martha welcomed Him into her house. And she had a sister called Mary, who also sat at Jesus' feet and heard His word. But Martha was distracted with much serving, and she approached Him and said, "Lord, do You not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Therefore tell her to help me." And Jesus answered and said to her, "Martha, Martha, you are worried and troubled about many things.  But one thing is needed, and Mary has chosen that good part, which will not be taken away from her." Lu 10:38‭-‬42 NKJV

This morning Dean from TLBS shared exactly the same verses. She also pointed two other verses which are my heart verses too.

Not that I have already attained, or am already perfected; but I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me. Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I  do,  forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. Php 3:12‭-‬14 NKJV

One thing I have desired of the Lord , That will I seek: That I may dwell in the house of the Lord All the days of my life, To behold the beauty of the Lord , And to inquire in His temple. Ps 27:4 NKJV

Bro LT, the lecturer today made a sentence
"We cannot know God exhaustedly. If we can do so we will be god ourselves. We know Him to the measurement or extend He revealed to us."

The Lord is telling me there is only one thing needed, to sit at His feet.

I was tired in the dream because I was tired physically and spiritually in reality. I was resuming back to 'doing' instead of 'being'. I was worried and troubled about many things when only one thing is needed - intimacy with Jesus.
Nothing should come before or take over the priority of sitting at Jesus feet.
The Lord reminded me that Psalm 27:4 and Php 3:12‭-‬14 have been my prayers. He knows and He wants me to focus on just that one thing.
I was seeking to be accepted (right)by God; to be at peace (sandal) with Him. I can find it in Jesus (ladder), He is the redemption and grace (silver ladder).

Symbolic for dream:
Right - Natural: authority; power; the strength of man (flesh) or the power of God revealed through man; accepted.
Right turn=natural change
Matt 5:29,30
1 Peter 3:22

Ladder - Ascend or descend: Escape; enable; way; steps.
Gen 28:12-13
John 3:13

Shoe - sign of walking, protection for your walk
Symbolic of a servant Ps 108:9.
A journey or a person prepared to witness gospel of Christ Eph 6:15

Sandals - symbolic of gospel of peace Eph 6:11
God's love for His wayward children LK 15:21-24

Silver – redemption, grace
Negative – legalism

My child, you were tired because you were seeking you thought to be the right way to earn My love. My love cannot be earned.

You are tired because you are lovesick. You love Me but you are not sure whether I love you. You are not sure whether you mean anything to Me. So you are lovesick. You are seeking way to gain My love rather than Me, I am your beloved.
You do not have to work hard to earn My love. I voluntarily love you. You do not earn it.
I delight in you.
I am with you. I have plan for you and it's all in Me. You do not have to go searching all over the places. I am the One leads you and guide you. Look to Me. I am the Way. So that you know I love you. You do not have to search for the right way. I am the Way (ladder). I am in you and you are in Me. The Way is in you. I am the Way. I give you rest. I guide your steps and I make you steady in your walk.

Trust in Me. You are strong when you are weak. I am the Lord who enable you. Do not fret. Be still and know that I am God.

Lord, I do not want to know you by knowledge. I want to encounter You. I am desperate for You.
Bring me wherever You go and I will run after You...

I was trying to untie my daughter's hair. Her hair got entangled by black hair band. I decided to use a pair scissor to cut away the hair from the hair band. The top of her hair down till near thw hair band was black and hair below the band till the end was white colour. I cut much of the white portion with a border of white hair left at the end. When I looked into the mirror, it was me not my daughter. I was very pleased with my new look. The black hair with white edge was beautiful!

Hair – wisdom & anointing

DAUGHTER
Definition For:
DREAMS

In an internal dream, your daughter could speak of those things you have borne in the spirit. In other words, they can speak of your ministry. They could also speak of the positive forces of the spirit i.e. faith, hope and love.

My daughters have always represented my love and my faith in my dreams. Identify your relationship with your daughter and you will discover what they represent in your dreams. Whether positive, meaning the forces of the spirit, or negative, meaning the works of the flesh, your children will be symbolic of the relationships you have with them in real life.

White – righteousness, holiness
Negative – religious spirit

Black – death, mystery
Negative – sin, darkness

11 Sep 2016 I was asking the Lord for the name of a SOM student. I saw the word "Lucia"

13 Sep 2016 today I read this part of John Paul Jackson training manual on dream interpretation:

Develop the skill of "Lucid Dreaming"

a. Lucid Dreaming is where even though you are in a dream you have the ability to interact and think independent from your dream. In short, you are interacting with God while you are dreaming about your dream!

b. A few examples are: asking questions, changing endings, asking for the interpretation as you are dreaming.

c. When you are participating in your dreams in this way you tend to remember the details more and often times you wake up already interacting with God about your dream. Occasionally, the Lord will even give you the interpretation of a dream as you ask Him about the details of the dream while you are dreaming.

I became very negative and got offended by things that I will not mind at all before. I was troubled why I felt that way. I seek God.

My child you do not take it personally.
I am showing you how the enemies work.
The evil ones came only to kill, to destroy and to steal. To accuse to shame and to make guilty my people for the things they did not do. The enemies came to input thoughts that you thought those were coming from within you.
But My child I have declared you righteous through My Son. He was the perfect sacrifice I had prepared for Myself. I am the great I am, I do not lie. For I declare you free, you are indeed free from your old man, your old thought, your old self, free from sins. You are bound by grace in My Son.  You are slave to righteousness unto My Son. You had been set free from sin that once so easily entangled you. But now you are set apart by Me for My Kingdom and for My glory. Look up and live My child. You are a honorable vessel.

What has shawn Bolz done? Did he prophesy out of his own will or by My Holy Spirit? A man can received nothing but from God. Every good gift came from above. There is a man who hear from God and by My grace I revealed to him. Know that I even I am the God who reveals the secret things and I delight in showing My people great and mighty things when they asked me. Did you come to see a man who can prophesy so accurately? Do you not know that the Spirit, the Spirit of God knows all things? It was the Spirit who reveal, not the man.
Do not rejoice because of success but rejoice because your name is written in the Book of Life. Don't let your doubts and your unstable emotions rob you of your joy.

Jesus said 'My sheep hear My voice'. All who desire will hear My voice because they belong to Me and I know them.

I was resolving conflict with my elder sister. We had a serious fight. I told her that she had to apologise to me first and I will then do the same to her. My relatives ride bicycles to the house of my grandma to witness our fight.

Then I was seated before a rectangular table placed with many pots of plants. The leaves were green and fresh. I ate from the plants and they tasted very sweet and I like it.

Symbolic:

Fighting-if you are fighting your relatives in a dream it is symbolic of shame and disgrace, Prov. 19:26. If you fight other people it symbolizes bitterness and anger towards them

SIBLINGS
Definition For:
DREAMS

POSITIVE and NEGATIVE...
It is important that you identify what kind of relationship you have with your sister or brother. When you think of your sister or brother what is the first thing that comes to your mind to describe them? What about them stands out the most? Perhaps your sister is willful – she could speak of your will. Maybe she is insecure, in which case she would speak of insecurity. Perhaps your brother is highly intellectual, then he would likely speak of your intellect. Maybe your brother was the kind of person that always protected you – in this case he could speak of the Holy Spirit in your dreams.

Definition For:
VISIONS

POSITIVE and NEGATIVE...
When I see someone's sibling during ministry, the Lord is usually wanting to address an issue. Often the Lord indicates that the person needs to break links with their sibling, other times a healing needs to be spoken forth. The Lord will give you an inner knowing or impression to go along with the vision, so remain sensitive to the spirit and you will be able to understand exactly what the Lord wants you to do with the revelation He gave you.

Speaking of breaking links with family:

Luke 14:26 "If any [man] come to me, and hate not his father, and mother, and wife, and children, and brothers, and sisters, yes, and his own [psuche] life also, he cannot be my disciple." (GMR)

Speaking of the family of Christ:

Matthew 12:50 "For whoever shall do the will of my Father who is in heaven, that person is my brother, and sister, and mother." (GMR)

BICYCLE or MOTORBIKE...
A bicycle speaks of a personal small ministry. I often dreamt of trading my car for a bicycle or motorbike. This does not necessarily have a bad connotation; it simply denotes a change of emphasis in ministry. I will often see this in personal ministry as well. The Lord telling someone that they will be traveling alone for a while in personal ministry.

Plants-symbolic of sons, people, or the repercussions of your actions, Ps. 144:12. If the plants are with­ered it symbolizes a lack of vibrancy

repercussions - the effect that an action, event, or decision has on something, especially a bad effect: Any decrease in tourism could have serious repercussions for the local economy.

In the dream I was seating at a table with my younger sister Jes. She was 'boasting' of her efficiency in doing things and childbirth. I rebuke her boasting and asked her had her ever have a secret that is kept just between God and her. She looked puzzled. I explained to her intimacy with the Lord.

Have you ever has secret between the Lord and you only? Worship the Lord is not like worship idol, go to the temple and worship for that moment and then came out and turn away and back to usual lifestyle as if the Lord is not with you. No! He is with you all the time.
Worship is not about leading songs on stage and singing. Your church worship with human effort and make young christian (immature) to lead worship on stage. They like leading worship because they felt good. This is not true worship.

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I was Q ING before an opening on the ground to go to the basement. A man (seems familiar but yet I did not know him) was using his gesture to tell me he wanted intimacy with me. I hesitated because I felt that it was not right as I already was a wife of my husband. He persisted but I rejected him. Then we went to the basement and we went up by the staircases. It was narrow and there were people sitting on the staircase blocking the way. We managed to get through our way. In a closet small room, we had intimacy.
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Lord, are you speaking to me about intimacy with  you and able to keep secret of what You told me? True worship is a consistent intimacy with the Lord. You have been teaching me intimacy and secret. Is there something you want me to do? What is it that you are telling me?

Symbolic

BASEMENT
A lower division of a home or building.
Definition For:
DREAMS AND VISIONS

POSITIVE AND NEGATIVE...
When dreaming of a basement, it usually represents a 'going down' or a time of humbling. The saying 'promotion begins at the basement' is still very prevalent in the spiritual life today. Paul called himself 'the scum of the earth' and if you are looking to the Lord for promotion or to move on to the next phase in your spiritual life, be sure that the promotion begins in the basement!

I remember one case where I was giving direction to someone with regards to their ministry. I saw them standing proud. Then by the floor, I saw this small door that led to their promotion. The message was very clear – before they could enter into the next phase of their ministry, they would be humbled first. True enough, not long after that revelation, the person in question had to humble themselves to people they had left behind on bad terms with, along with being ostracized in their current ministry position. The good news however is that this person did indeed rise up into that promotion!

Speaking of being humble:

Psalms 34:18 The LORD [Yahweh] [is] near to those that are of a broken heart; and saves those who are of a contrite spirit.(GMR)

Ps Yang was behind me and I intentionally fell on him.
We fell to the floor together, Ps Yang eyes were closed and face smiling. For a moment I thought he lost his conscious and I was worried and I called and shake him. He opened his eyes and we were overjoyed meeting each other and we hugged and rejoice together. There were such closeness. I was closed enough to him to kisd him. Then we held each other's hand and walk to a public meeting. Ps Yang asked me whether I managed to retrieve the pendant that was lost sometimes ago. For a moment I did not understand what he meant. Then, I told him that I had a thorough house renovation and the pendant could had been completely lost, cannot be found anymore.

Then we were separated when we went to the toilets. I came into a toilet that was on the top. After poo I realised my tissues were dirty and I could not use them. I jumped down and went to the meeting.

Everyone attended the meeting was seated on a field with ropes to segregate that place for the meeting. I was seated with a group of friends. One of them I had met earlier and I saw her again.

Then Ps Yang walked to the stage to join the worship. The worship instruments were quite inadequate. Some of the instruments were wooden and somehow could not make nice and sharp melody. I was given an instrument and the worship leader told me to use it but it did not produce nice music.

People were occupping the back of the field but at the front of field it was quite empty.

'My child, I cause that stirring in your heart.
You find discomfort but be comfort that I am the One causing that stirring in you.
I initiate. I seek you. I stir your heart to seek Me.
I cannot fully understand by you but to the measure you hear Me, you will receive.'

'Lord, I desire You and desperate for You. Nothing can satisfy my heart like You do. I believe with all my heart and mind and soul. Let me stop breathing if I ever ever stop seeking and pursuing You. Do not let me go..Lord. I'll pay any cost to get closer to You if You will show me and lead me. My heart is beating fast because of You. Make me desperate more and more. Bend me as You please, Lord! I know it is a risk to pray that but I can't help yet I know You will carry me at Your back and You make me soar with You like an eagle. Let the Spirit of fire fall on me and keep burning for Jesus, more and more each day!'

Today lecture at TLBS on the book of Romans by Rev Les Wheeldon
If man want to help himself, he has to go down to zero ground.
Human ways cannot help me get to God.
Only by faith through Jesus Christ.
We must repent - turn away from our sins  putting away old man and rejoice in new life.

Right - Natural: authority; power; the strength of man (flesh) or the power of God revealed through man; accepted.
Right turn=natural change
Matt 5:29,30
1 Peter 3:22

Right turn - turning towards wisdom

Ladder - Ascend or descend: Escape; enable; way; steps.
Gen 28:12-13
John 3:13

Shoe - sign of walking, protection for your walk
Symbolic of a servant Ps 108:9.
A journey or a person prepared to witness gospel of Christ Eph 6:15

Sandals - symbolic of gospel Eph 6:11
God's love for His wayward children LK 15:21-24

Road - symbolic of a person's journey in life or a choice.
The road is smooth symbolise God's intervention on your behalf. LK 3:5

Woman/friend - symbolise help and understanding  Pro 7:4

His!

September 4, 2016
His!
They were Yours, You gave them to Me… —John 17:6

A missionary is someone in whom the Holy Spirit has brought about this realization: "You are not your own" (1 Corinthians 6:19). To say, "I am not my own," is to have reached a high point in my spiritual stature. The true nature of that life in actual everyday confusion is evidenced by the deliberate giving up of myself to another Person through a sovereign decision, and that Person is Jesus Christ. The Holy Spirit interprets and explains the nature of Jesus to me to make me one with my Lord, not that I might simply become a trophy for His showcase. Our Lord never sent any of His disciples out on the basis of what He had done for them. It was not until after the resurrection, when the disciples had perceived through the power of the Holy Spirit who Jesus really was, that He said, "Go" (Matthew 28:19; also see Luke 24:49 and Acts 1:8).

"If anyone comes to Me and does not hate his father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters, yes, and his own life also, he cannot be My disciple" (Luke 14:26). He was not saying that this person cannot be good and upright, but that he cannot be someone over whom Jesus can write the word Mine. Any one of the relationships our Lord mentions in this verse can compete with our relationship with Him. I may prefer to belong to my mother, or to my wife, or to myself, but if that is the case, then, Jesus said, "[You] cannot be My disciple." This does not mean that I will not be saved, but it does mean that I cannot be entirely His.

Our Lord makes His disciple His very own possession, becoming responsible for him. "…you shall be witnesses to Me…" (Acts 1:8). The desire that comes into a disciple is not one of doing anything for Jesus, but of being a perfect delight to Him. The missionary's secret is truly being able to say, "I am His, and He is accomplishing His work and His purposes through me."

Be entirely His!

WISDOM FROM OSWALD CHAMBERS

The Christian Church should not be a secret society of specialists, but a public manifestation of believers in Jesus.  Facing Reality, 34 R

I was very tired (physically) in the dream.
I was searching everywhere for a sandal (right foot) while I actually already had a pair on my feet fitted just nice that I did not even know I was wearing them. But I was searching around for that right foot sandal. I was at the high floor of a building, after not able to find the right foot sandal, I left by climbing from the top floor down to the ground with a long ladder attached. I climbed down with my back facing outward and I was facing the ladder. I could not look down but use my feet to feel the ladder and step by step I went down at a steady and rather fast speed. The 2 cg leaders Irene and Julie were waiting for me at ground floor. Then we crossed over the road but I was struggling with my walking steps as I felt physically tired. I saw a on-coming car toward me so I used all the strength that I had to run across the road.

Woke up feeling very exhausted..

Do not seek the wisdom or methods or system of the world. The wisdom of man is proud and haughty and burdensome.
Seek the Lord and be founded or rooted in Jesus Christ. In Him only. Let my feet be fitted in the gospel of Jesus Christ.
Do not thrive and search around. The Lord will reveal when it's time for me to know. I will get exhausted if I keep searching around for what He wants me to do.
The Lord Himself will orchestra and it will not be burdensome but it will be a great joy to serve Him. Even when I am tired and weak, I will find strength in Him.
God's work must be done in God's way. Not my way. Rest in Him.

God has given Himself to us. The Holy Spirit is God Himself dwells in us. He is the best gift. Nothing is better. He is more awesome than His  holy places. The God of Israel is He who gives strength and power to His people! Psalm 68:35
Wow!!!

Lord, you have made a covenant with me and you said you will never break it. Therefore I will keep the covenant. Even in the dark nights when I did not hear you, did not see you, even when every word in the scripture did not speak to me, even when everything seems silent, I remember Your promise and I will cling on to You. You promise that your presence will go before me and you will be with me, I shall persevere and I am able to pull through. I have put on the ring of the covenant and signed the marriage bond with You. Nothing can separate Your love from me, not even death. I used the sharp knife and pierce through this heart and it was dead. I gave it over to you. You took it, removed the knife and revive the heart. Then You placed it into Your heart. You mingled the heart with Yours and You put it back into me again. Now the heart is one with Yours. I am ready Lord, even if it is weighty, I am ready because You enabled me, no matter how painful it will be. I'm in love with You. Separation from you is unbearable for me, to leave You is more difficult and painful than anything I could bear. It shall never again. You made me for Your pleasure and You caused me to pursue you and desperate for You. Hide not Your face from me. It's not funny at all to hide. Because it's more painful than anything. You said I will find you. Let me see You face to face, even if I have to die so let it be. I don't care what come along the way as long as I see You. I am ready to love what you love, to grieve what you grieve and to carry what you carry as long as You are with me.

The Lord was with my husband, while we were walking at the beach catching fishes and seashells. I saw my husband excitingly coming to Jesus showing Him all the seashells he caught and the Lord talked with him about God's creation of each seashell. Comforting and heartwarming moment. Rhema moment..