Why is man so miserable?
This is because man wants to take the position that doesn't fit him and doesn't intended for him and doesn't belong him.

When man goes into the right place, at the right position, he is the most joyous and most satisfied and happiest.

Where is man position?
Man position is in Christ.

When man wants to take the positions that are out of Christ, he became miserable and unhappy.

Satan wants to take the position of God, he became miserable and he wants to bring man to the same miserable state.

We must take heed and be watchful and alert. Humble ourselves in God's hands at all time so that we will not be proud and fall into the trap of enemies.

I was at a building liken a shopping mall. Two to three men were performing sign & wonder at the hall of the mall. A white cloth symbolize the Holy Spirit was placed at the scene. The feeling of watching the sign performed by these men were fairly good.

My daughters Sammi and Selyn were with me. We were at the higher floor, in my understanding seems that we were at the 2nd floor of the mall. Selyn was riding a toy car and she overran to pass over the barrier and fell straight down from the 2nd floor to the 1st floor. I ran towards her and looked down with shocked, when she reached the ground floor, Sammi too fell with her. However, both of them stand up immediately after they hit the ground and called to me. I knew they were supernaturally alright and no injury.

Selyn was with me, we wanted to do something spiritual but was hindered by the pictures on the wall of the mall. Then we prayed over it and removed the pictures from the wall. The pictures were significantly removed from the wall. The feeling was supernatural & spiritual.

Dream ended.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You anoint my head with oil;
My cup runs over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life;
And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

Invitation from the Lord.
My child, come and see what I have prepared for you.
All that I want is the devotion of your heart. Embark for the journey of My goodness and mercy. Taste and see that I am good.

Psalm.34.8.nkjv Oh, taste and see that the Lord  is good; Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!

Exodus.33.18-19.nkjv And he said, "Please, show me Your glory." Then He said, "I will make all My goodness pass before you, and I will proclaim the name of the Lord before you. I will be gracious to whom I will be gracious, and I will have compassion on whom I will have compassion."

Exodus.34.5-8.nkjv Now the Lord descended in the cloud and stood with him there, and proclaimed the name of the Lord . And the Lord passed before him and proclaimed, "The Lord , the Lord  God, merciful and gracious, longsuffering, and abounding in goodness and truth, keeping mercy for thousands, forgiving iniquity and transgression and sin, by no means clearing the  guilty, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children and the children's children to the third and the fourth generation." So Moses made haste and bowed his head toward the earth, and worshiped.

Isaiah.14.13-14.nkjv For you have said in your heart: 'I will ascend into heaven, I will exalt my throne above the stars of God; I will also sit on the mount of the congregation On the farthest sides of the north; I will ascend above the heights of the clouds, I will be like the Most High.'

1 Timothy.3.4-6.nkjv one who rules his own house well, having his children in submission with all reverence (for if a man does not know how to rule his own house, how will he take care of the church of God?); not a novice, lest being puffed up with pride he fall into the same condemnation as the devil.

5 Immutable attributes of the Most High
1. Mercy
2. Gracious
3. Longsuffering
4. Goodness
5. Truth

Mercy seat always above the laws
Matthew 23:23  pharisees picking on small issues and forgot abt mercy and compassion

We learn righteousness by grace
The world learned righteousness by justice

isa.26.10.nkjv Let grace be shown to the wicked, Yet he will not learn righteousness; In the land of uprightness he will deal unjustly, And will not behold the majesty of the Lord .

Law is given to restrict what  can be done to those who did wrong. The law is good as it protects the law-breaker out of mercy.

Justice is getting what you deserve no more, no less.
Mercy is not getting what you deserve.
Grace is getting what you do not reserve.

Hebrew 10:30-31
NT is stricter than OT

A Life Verses

Roman 9:15-16

MERCY

Who does God show mercy to?

1) He shows mercy to those who ask Him for it

2) Mercy is shown to the one whom himself is merciful to others.

3) Mercy is shown to those who will not take advantage of it.

Weak (e.g. Peter) vs wicked ( e.g. Judas)

Mercy is not a right.

How to be merciful?

Hebrew 2:17-18

http://bible.com/114/heb.2.17-18.nkjv Therefore, in all things He had to be made like His brethren, that He might be a merciful and faithful High Priest in things pertaining to God, to make propitiation for the sins of the people. For in that He Himself has suffered, being tempted, He is able to aid those who are tempted.

Zechariah 10:3-4
zec.10.3-4.nkjv "My anger is kindled against the shepherds, And I will punish the goatherds. For the Lord of hosts will visit His flock, The house of Judah, And will make them as His royal horse in the battle. From him comes the cornerstone, From him the tent peg, From him the battle bow, From him every ruler together.

Same father, different mother

Mothers in bible refer to nurturing
Annointing over each tribe is different

There are Church borned out of envy, out of rejection, etc
Joseph was a tribe borned out of geninue cry to God

Headship annointing

Psalm 133
Annointing over the head of Aron thru his beard, body...

Hebrew 8:8 Judah
Jacob blessing over Judah

Patriarchal blessings of Jacob on Judah
Genesis 49:8-9

Judah is a cub of lion
Be bold

Hebrew words for lion

1)Gur
2)Aryeh
3)Lebaowth

Cub is borned blind for first few days.
Judah slept with his dil
Judah put off his foolishness and transformed

1 chronicles 5:1-2

http://bible.com/114/1ch.5.1-2.nkjv Now the sons of Reuben the firstborn of Israel— he was indeed the firstborn, but because he defiled his father's bed, his birthright was given to the sons of Joseph, the son of Israel, so that the genealogy is not listed according to the birthright; yet Judah prevailed over his brothers, and from him came a ruler, although the birthright was Joseph's—

The double blessing of Judah came from Reuben, who was disqualified.

Out of Judah came the future kings of Israel

Raise men and women to become kings and queens

Tribal blessings of Judah
1) Judah is always first in battle
2) Judah carried the Scepter (king Jesus)
3) Judah mean Praise
4) Judah had an annointing for business

Tribe of Levites Preeminent over tribe of Judah

Judah has to always submit to the priesthood of Levites

1 Corinthians 2:10-11
Nahshon - Prophetic voice

Willing people - Amminadab

In my dream, my mum and a cousin (GX) were with me.

The most vivid of the dream was we saw 3D faces and images of all kinds (e.g. some were images of weapons for warfare) showing up from the sky, one image follow by the next, in a consecutive way. The interval between these images were acceptable, the next image will come forth immediately after the previous one completely showed up. All the images were colourless and formed with substance like transparent crystal clear water, towards the last few images before I no longer can see them,  one of them was colourful but I couldnt see what was it. The first image was a very vivid face of a man. One of the images was a full man from head to toes.

Taking heed of the words of God that we should not follow sign & wonders blindly bur rather to test every spirit. So I tried to verify what I saw and was aware of the possibility that it could be one of those celebration for SG50 in Singapore.

One of the thought that came to my mind was to evangelize to my mum & cousin of the salvation thru Jesus Christ, since they witnessed these images/signs from heaven with me.

When I became a christian at the age of 16, I was very eager to do many things for the Lord. My bible study teacher told me that God will let us go through trials before He could use us for His purposes. So my prayers everyday was "Lord,  give me trials." I thought I could proved to God that I will stand firm in whatever trials he gave me. I was ignorant, foolish and proud.

I remember I onced went up to the altar of the church and asked for prayer. I told the pastor I want to preach the gospel to the unsaved. He said in a rebuking tone, "you do not preach the gospel, you share the gospel".

At the age of 17, I had a spiritual experience. One night while lying on the mattress preparing to sleep, a spirit entered into my body and I could felt that it was moving up to my head and then down to my feet and then up again. I felt the discomfort tickling in my ears as it moved in every parts of my body. I couldn't moved and I tried very hard to pray but I could not speak a word. After much struggles and prayers, I saw with my own eyes a dark spirit came out gradually from the back of my body.
After it completely left my body, immediately I was able to move and I quickly turned to look behind but I saw nothing, except my grandma sleeping beside me.

Few months later, the test came and i was faced with temptation but I failed and backslidded from God.

My dreams were shattered and my zeal for God was killed by my disappointment, I was disappointed of myself. I lived a sinful lifestyle and was involved in lustful activities. I knew this was not how God wanted me to live but I couldnt get out of it. I was very helpless. I felt dirty, ugly and worthless. I thought I could no longer stand before a God who is so holy and righteous. I had failed Him and I was no longer worthy for Him.

Several times, the thought of ending my life came into mind. But every time I was being reminded that my purpose of existing was to uphold the truth. If I end my life, I will not fulfill the purpose God could have given to me. I told God, " now I know I am a sinner and there is nothing worthy in me. I would rather live in pain and suffer the consequences of my sins and wait for my deliverance, than to die in shame."

I waited and waited until one day God  stirred up my heart with great courage to return to Him. I remember the night when I decided to return to him, it was a long & difficult night, I could felt the dark forces surrounding me and inputting fears in me when I was sitting on my bed. I felt very lonely but I knew I just had to endure until the morning came.

God has bring me to a journey of healing and restoration. It is a long journey but one worth taking. Coming out of the power of darkness and enter into the light is not an easy path, but Jesus is the Light that leads us to the right path. We have to keep believing and press on and never give up. Hold on there when you feel lonely, discourage and disappointed, wait for God quietly.

NLT version
Lamentation chap 3 Verse 19-33
Best describe the cry of my heart:

The thought of my suffering and homelessness is bitter beyond words.
I will never forget this awful time,
As I grieve over my loss.
Yet I still dare to hope when I remember this:

The faithful love of the Lord never ends!
His mercies never cease.
Great is his faithfulness;
His mercies begin afresh each morning.
I say to myself, "the Lord is my inheritance; therefore, I will hope in him!"
The Lord is good to those who depend on him, to those who search for him.
So it is good to wait quietly for salvation from the Lord.
And it is good for people to submit at an early age to the yoke of his discipline:
Let them sit alone in silence beneath the Lord's demands.
Let them lie face down in the dust, for there may be hope at last.
Let them turn the other cheek to those who strike them and accept the insults of their enemies.
For no one is abandoned by the Lord forever.
Though he brings grief, he also shows compassion because of the greatness of his unfailing love.
For he does not enjoy hurting people or causing them sorrow.

/lam.3.19-33.nkjv Remember my affliction and roaming, The wormwood and the gall. My soul still remembers And sinks within me. This I recall to my mind, Therefore I have hope. Through the Lord 's mercies we are not consumed, Because His compassions fail not. They  are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness. "The Lord  is my portion," says my soul, "Therefore I hope in Him!" The Lord  is good to those who wait for Him, To the soul who seeks Him. It  is good that one should hope and wait quietly For the salvation of the Lord . It  is good for a man to bear The yoke in his youth. Let him sit alone and keep silent, Because God has laid it on him; Let him put his mouth in the dust— There may yet be hope. Let him give his cheek to the one who strikes him, And be full of reproach. For the Lord will not cast off forever. Though He causes grief, Yet He will show compassion According to the multitude of His mercies. For He does not afflict willingly, Nor grieve the children of men.

Back in year 2008, I realised that my eyelids muscle were getting weaker and everyday by the evening, I could not keep my eyes opened. I went to a clinic & the doctor referred me to a specialist. After listening to my description about my conditions, the specialist asked me to answer some questions for depression assessment. He concluded that I was suffering from minor depression that leads to the weakening of my eyelids muscles.

When I was at the waiting hall to see the specialist, I found some magazines or books about christianity, with these I assumed that the doctors at that clinic could be Christians.

So I asked the specialist whether was he a christian and his answer was "yes, I am". I asked him whether could he pray for me and he did so. During that time, I am already a christian but I was living in lots of struggles and in sins. However, i never give up hope in my Redeemer. I knew I was weak at that time and I needed a christian who is stronger in faith to pray over me.

After praying, he gave me free sampling of medicines for depression that lasted for 2 weeks. I went back for review after 2 weeks, he assessed me again and then he gave me the same medication that lasted for 6 months as I showed improvement after the initial 2 weeks of medication.

After 6 months, I went back for review and he told me I was fully recovered. 

God is a healer, He hears our prayers and He sees the heart of those who trust in Him and who keep believing in Him. 

A child like to boast about his father, who his father is, what does his father do, how much his father love him, how much his father has done for him, etc.

The bible does not forbid boasting.
Paul said in

1 Corinthians 1:30-31

God has united you with Christ Jesus. For our benefit God made Him to be wisdom itself. Christ made us right with God; He made us pure and holy, and He freed us from sin. Therefore, as the Scriptures say, "if you want to boast, boast only about the Lord."

Thanks God! I cannot boast about myself, I cannot boast about what I have achieved. I have none of them. I can only boast about the Lord!

Just to encourage us who are preparing for mission trip, with these verses:

1 Corinthians 2:1-5

Paul continued to say,
I didn't use lofty words and impressive wisdom to tell you God's secret plan. For I decided that while I was with you I would forget everything except Jesus Christ, the one who was crucified. I came to you in weakness- timid and trembling. And my message and my teaching were very plain. Rather than using clever and persuasive speeches, I relied only on the power of the Holy Spirit. I did this so you would trust not in human wisdom but in the power of God.

1 Corinthians 2:10-12

But it was to us that God revealed these things by His Spirit. For His Spirit searches out everything and shows us God's deep secrets. No one can know a person's thoughts except that person's own spirit, and no one can know God's thoughts except God's own Spirit. And we have received God's Spirit (not the world's spirit) , so we can know the wonderful things God has freely given us.

1 Corinthians 1:27-29

Instead, God chose things the world considers foolish in order to shame those who think they are wise. And he chose things that are powerless to shame those who are powerful. God chose things despised by the world, things counted as nothing at all, and used them to bring to nothing what the world considers important. As a result, no one can ever boast in the presence of God.

These are some of those verses that bring excitment to me.

When I look back my life, I have nothing to boast about.

As a child, I was the most timid and hidden one among the 3 daughters of my parents.
As a primary student, I was one of those who did badly in class, in spelling, in test, in exam. I was onced slapped by my maths teacher for scoring zero for a test.
As a pre-u student, my accounting lecturer slapped me on my face when I couldn't answer her question. And I failed my GP.
As a working adult, I had a boss who said to me during a yearly appraisal, that she was putting her head at the chopping board by giving me chances to perform in my work. Today I achieve nothing in my career. I am trained in accounting skills but I consistently feeling insufficient & inadequate.
As a child to my father, I did not know how to talk to him.
To my mother, I was selfish, enclosed and a hard person to communicate with.
As a mother, my children always correct my English pronunciation and my spouse & children always called me "goldfish".

The world (human views and standard) considers me not clever, foolish, cannot excel and insignificant in the world. I used to dislike myself and despise myself for not able to catch up. Until I came to know that God's standard is completely different from the world's standard. God chose things that are:
1) foolish
2) powerless
3) despise by the world
4) counted as nothing by the world
5) cannot boast at all by the world standard

I realised that I met all the above cateria  listed by God. And I know why He has chosen me. So that I can be
1) a fool to shame those who think they are wise
2) powerless to shame those who are powerful
3) nothing to bring to nothing what the world considers important
4) I can boast of who I am only in Jesus Christ.

I felt very released, I'm no longer bothered by what or how the world sees me. The more the world despise me, the more I rejoice! Because I'm qualified for the kingdom of God.

I came to a food place with many stalls selling various kind of cooked food. I had already in mind what kind of food I wanted to buy, I had 2 preferences. However, I then realised that all the stalls were closed, except a stall selling slice  fish soup and noodle, the food that I wasn't crave to eat in the dream. Nevertheless, I decided to Q for it. When I walked to the stall, I noticed there was no one Q up, so I thought to myself I better be quick before everyone rushed to buy, since not many pple were yet  aware that there was only 1 choice (1 stall opened). But the moment I decided to go for that only stall, walking toward the goal became very hard, a sense of weakness in my legs and my body causing me to move really very very slow, I had to used all my energy just to touch the corner edge of the stall to prove that I was already in the Q. On my way, I saw a group of young people were already forming a long Q at the drink stall. I felt relief that these people got to Q up to buy drink first ( they were thirsty but I was hungry), instead of to buy food.

Consecutively been dreaming about food. Huge varieties of food to choose from. In 1 of the dream, something was added on to a kind of food to make its taste perfect and more delicious.

In another dream, I was browsing around a buffet, taking food for myself. But when I came to an area, I tried to pick up a kind of food I want but for not sure why i just couldn't grap hold of it and I became very shy while people around were looking at me waiting to take the food after I finish. Then I gave up my food and look n saw 2 kinds of food, 1 was my elders daughter favourite, the other was liked by both daughters. So I went to take the food that both of them liked. But I just couldn't find suitable bowls to contain the food. They were not with me as I found that i need their help to collect their own portion of food, but they were running around having fun. They did not seem to be hungry.

The Lord said it's not about what I can do for Him, it's about what He is going to do in me. He wants to work on my relationship with people, the part that I always struggling with, even until today.

Many times I dreamt of nakedness in public places, in the dream I was very embarrassed and tried many ways to cover myself. Initially I thought could it be my lust and carnal thought causing me to have these dreams.

After listening to John Paul Jackson interpretation of dreams, I received revelation that God wants to work on my relationship with people - trusting in Him to bring fruitful, fulfilling, joyful and trusting relationship with people of God. I am still scare to reveal myself too much, I would rather be quiet at a corner, I am uncomfortable to get attention from people. That probably has to do with my childhood, I was timid and always hiding from people when I was a child. Bad in speech and poor in expressing myself. Slow in academic learning. Always think others are more important than me and as far as I can, tried my very best not to be of any burden to anyone. Self sufficient, self help and self motivating were my way of surviving.

God has been working on my relationship with Him, His Son and His Holy Spirit. Now is the time He is going to work on my relationship with people to prepare me for His purposes.

I am excited about it. God's ways are most adventure and fascinating!

Relationship - I have to work out my relationship with people.
Resources - privilege to participate and witnesse the great deeds of God as He gathered the resources of the world to advance His kingdom.

These 2 words the Lord showed me when I was seeking, praying and asking Him about my decision on YWAM accounting role.

He promised me I will have joy when I am at the place doing what He has intended for me for this season of time.
He promised me provision for my family.

In my vision, I saw a open door with light shining through it. I entered through the door and found myself surrounded by unspeakable light. I saw a smiling angel with wings and a warrior clothed with the full armors of God.

Only God can allow us to participate in His work, therefore, unless the Lord called us to do, otherwise we are doing out of mere man's ambitious and agenda, those works will not be accepted n pleasing to Him. Whatever we do, we are merely fulfilling our responsibility given by God, there is nothing we can boast of. When God called us to do something, we must know that it is a priveledge and His grace given to us to participate and witness His mighty great deeds.

**Obedience is our work, the rest are God's.

The costs of obedience.
Allow God to do whatever He wants to do to me, in order for Him to fullfill His purposes on earth.
The future is not unknown, but God is pleasure to see His children seeking, asking, pursuing Him, to go all the way to know His heart and what really concern Him.
Faith - obey without knowing what's next.
Trust that God will take care of family and our needs.
Fully lead by the Holy Spirit everyday is an exciting lifestyle, but requires us to let God kills our flesh, nailed us at the cross. We have to deny our desires, our needs, our ambition, our thought n carry our cross & follow Him.
His will is my will, His desire is my desire, His care is my care, His concern is my concern, His joy is my joy, His love is my love, His hate is my hate.

http://www.tscpulpitseries.org/english/1990s/ts960708.html

In the Old Testament, Every Person
Had His Own Individual Destiny!

There were as many destinies in the Old Testament as there were kings, priest, prophets and even ordinary saints. Even the lowliest people -- those called to be servants, worshipers, shepherds, tentmakers -- had his or her own destiny. And as we look at their lives, we are to be convicted by them. We are to learn from the failures of these past saints who either missed or fulfilled their destinies.

But we cannot compare our destiny to that of any person in the Old Testament! You see, in the New Testament, God has done an entirely new thing. He no longer measures our destiny as He did those under the Old Covenant. Their lives have nothing to do with our destiny, since the Cross of Jesus Christ.

At the Cross, God gathered up all the individual destinies of humankind into one grand purpose -- and He placed them all in His Son: "That in the dispensation of the fulness of times he might gather together in one all things in Christ, both which are in heaven, and which are on earth; even in him" (Ephesians 1:10)..

God gathered up all our destinies in Jesus -- so that His Son would have preeminence!

Today, there are no more individual destinies, but one destiny for all believers. Yes, you do have a destiny -- and it is the same as mine. It doesn't matter whether you're a waitress or the captain of an ocean liner. We have all the same fixed, predetermined destiny, given to us before the world was formed.

What is this single, grand and glorious destiny given to all last-day saints? The apostle Paul reveals it to us in the book of Ephesians: "According as he hath chosen us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before him in love: having predestinated us unto the adoption of children by Jesus Christ to himself, according to the good pleasure of his will, to the praise of the glory of his grace, wherein he hath made us accepted in the beloved" (verses 4-6).

God says, in essense: "In the last days, in the fullness of time, I have one divine purpose. And that is for every follower of Mine to come into adoption by Jesus Christ -- and to live blameless, as a praise and glory to My name!"

"In whom also we have obtained an inheritance, being predestinated according to the purpose of him who worketh all things after the counsel of his own will: that we should be to the praise of his glory" (verses 11-12).

Our destiny is to be an adopted child of God! We have been adopted by the heavenly Father -- and the devil no longer has any claim on us. Now we are to live for our Lord, blameless and holy, by the power of God's Spirit. Our single purpose on this earth is to live our lives as a praise and glory to Him!

Do you get what Paul is saying here? No person's destiny is measured by his great works, his achievements and exploits, his special accomplishments. No one's destiny ultimately is to build successful ministries, institutions or churches.

You might say, "Wait a minute, Brother Dave. Do you mean it wasn't your destiny to raise up Teen Challenge, the worldwide ministry to drug addicts and alcoholics? Do you mean it wasn't your destiny to come to New York and start Times Square Church?"

I thank God He allowed me to be the father of these works. Today there are some 300 Teen Challenge rehab centers worldwide. And now there is also a center of praise for Jesus on Broadway, at the crossroads of the world. But neither of these things was my destiny!

My destiny has little to do with the things God has allowed me to do. My destiny has always been to reach lost souls and bring them into the fullness of Jesus, to the praise and glory of God. My destiny also was to walk as an adopted son of God -- living before the world blameless, all to His praise and glory.

When I came to New York, nothing changed. My destiny had remained to build up the body of Christ -- and to walk before the Lord as his adopted son! Some day, not a single building that our ministry has built will be standing -- not the incorporated institutions, not the Bible schools, not the rehab houses. They all will decay and vanish. And when I stand on Judgment Day, I won't be able to take any of those things with me.

These ministries are simply "burdens of the Lord" that God has allowed us to share and undertake, while walking in our destiny of doing His perfect will. And I believe He has blessed these ministries because we have lived in our destiny.

Dear saint, God is not requiring some great accomplishment from you. The Bible makes this very clear: "He hath shewed thee, O man, what is good; and what doth the Lord require of thee, but to do justly, and to love mercy, and to walk humbly with thy God..." (Micah 6:8).

Paul was very certain about what his destiny was:"...that we may present every man perfect in Christ Jesus: whereunto I also labour, striving according to his working, which worketh in me mightily" (Colossians 1:28-29).

This is my destiny as well, as a minister of the Lord. It is that I become conformed more and more to the image of Jesus -- and that I also see you become more like Him!

I feel sorry for many of the young ministers who call, write and visit me from all over the country. Most are striving to live up to a destiny that is an invention of their own flesh. Some of them pastor small churches, pouring our their hearts in ministry to their congregations. But then another pastor may come to town and suddenly build a church of 1,000.

These young men compare themselves to the newcomer, thinking, "Surely I'm destined to do great things, as he is doing. What's wrong with me? Why am I not blessed with greater results? He's attracting huge numbers of people -- and I have only a handful each Sunday." They don't realize -- that is not their destiny! Their destiny is to get to know Christ better -- to have God's hand on them -- to walk blameless before Him in their city. The man with true power is the one who has a personal knowledge of Christ!

I see many Christian musicians striving to find a little acclaim, hoping their destiny is to write that one hit song that will put them over the top. Likewise, many Christian writers want to produce that one, great book. And many Christian businesspeople look for the big break that will distinguish them in their field.

But, beloved, if you're going to walk in your destiny, the only thing that will set you apart is your desire to surpass all others in the knowledge of Jesus. No one will spend more time alone with Him than you; no one will accept his wonderful adoption more eagerly than you. That is greatness! 

http://rickwarren.org/devotional/english/your-destiny-your-choice

"Are you ready to enter into a position that you no more have choices, but My will and My decision will be your only choice, no alternative and nothing more and nothing less? Obedience with no holding back anything from Me and ready to obey at any cost? Are you ready to let Me do whatever I want to do in you to bring you to your destiny? It may not be what you thought to be, it is beyond what you think you can dream and what you thought that are all you can do. It is not about you but Me. I am the Way, the Truth and the Life. It is not what or how much or how great you can do or can become. But how far you willing go with Me and how much of yourself you willing to give Me. I want no partial or portion of you but all of you.

Now you have the choices. A time will come when I will demand full obedience with no alternatives and choices."

I want to get into the very heart of God.
No matter where You bring me, what You want me to do, as long as I am in the very heart of Yours!

No matter what answers I received from You, I want to hear You, I want to get back to You again.

Its not about me anymore, it's about You. Do You hold me dear to Your heart? Do You know me? Do I hear you speak to me? Do I have a place in Your heart?

I don't care what position I'm in, I don't care how much or how great I can't be or can be. I don't care how inadequate I am or how capable I can be, as long as I am still after You and all I want to care is what bothers You and what pleases You, what brokes Your heart and what causes You pain. I serve You with fear and I pledge my love to You with no turning back and regardless of costs.

My voice is in you My child.
I speak through you, hear Me.

Lord, I hear you. My heart is trembling.
I am determined to follow you.